Friday, December 10, 2010

Yah I want to be like that!

December 10 – Wisdom What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? : I believe that would be my decision to start Regular Auxiliary Pioneering.  It has helped me find a calm center in a chaotic life.  It’s become a touchstone.  Whenever I have thoughts of worthlessness or despair I can say "no, I did good here!" this helps me find my equilibrium, providing an emotional step back up neutral.  

I feel a sense of accomplishment and peace I have been missing.  An underlying awareness that I am back on track.  Its also forcing me to face my scheduling “claustrophobia” work through it.  In keeping with embracing my erratically consistent nature if my schedule does not go as planned just like with diet and exercise I’m working on not wallowing in guilt and self hate doing my best to pick myself up, dust off and reroute and move forward… 

"As Water flows humbly to the lowest level. Nothing is weaker than water, Yet for overcoming what is hard & strong, Nothing surpasses it.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

As the year draws to a close

Finally I'm updating!  No I havent been
I have been working out been to a couple Zumba classes and a dance fusion class.  I also have been riding at least a couple times a week.  Last night I ran.  Not happy with how I felt or the time but at least I did it.  I have planned another 5K for January 29th.  I am really hoping to be strong enough to run the full 5K this time instead of wogging.

My eating has really not been great.  Portions are ok but I have been eating creamy high fat food and definitely not enough fruits and veggies.  I'm working on it!

I found this daily pondering the past year thing that I would like to do.  I’m behind so I did today and all the preceding days in one post.  Oh and I skipped one because it wasn’t at all pertinent.

Without further ado here are the first 8 Pensive Ponderings: